it felt pretty bold of me to do such things that time. is bold equivalent to silly? how can he not know then? i'm sure he did. i'm sure people around us, eyeing on us, did. i thought we enjoyed each other's company. did you not?

reading his last fb message to me, i think it's the last one cause i didnt check on further, i felt less angry this time round. i remembered how angry i felt when i first read it and in my head my reaction was, WTF? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! why are you the one making the decisions here?

it's January already. the last time i saw him in person was sucha long time ago. skype doesnt count. even if it count, we havent skyped for some time now too. why must he be so far away? would things have changed if i had known him here longer? i dont know man. why cant i move on from this......fling? why does he keep having such power over me? :'(