can you imagine how cheated i felt?

if my friend didnt tell me that he's back, would i be left in the dark all these while?

my friend texted me and i was like, are you freaking serious?! i was so flustered i didnt know what to think. i couldnt think. i was angry, nervous, excited, sad, disappointed all at the same time. i was actually lost in my surrounding. i stood in front of the SOE lift door, thinking it's an automated door and 2 seconds later i remembered i had to press the button to unlock the door. right.

WHY YOU HAVE SUCH AN EFFECT ON ME!

i was damn pissed off with him the whole. and my friends asked why am i so angry. how can i not! you know how long have i waited for this or not. obviously not!

at night i got to talk to him briefly. i dont know whether he heard my angry tone but he explained that he was too busy preparing for the job here that he didnt have time for fb. ok i know. but, ahhhhh dont know la. i just hoped that he had contacted me somehow despite of his busy schedule. why cant he just do something that will make me feel that i'm of value to him?

WHY

i realised that my New Year wish actually came true. and it came early too.

in a way, i have to say thanks right?